I don't make resolutions as a rule, what's the point? It's just another added pressure in an already pressurised society. This year is different though, I have resolved to fight and, hopefully beat, the deep depression I am living in which has been with me since 2007. I can't say I am winning, I try my best to get motivated to do something, anything, but the day ends up like previous days - I wake up, I go to bed and there's nothing in between - it's the most frustrating thing I've had to deal with, I have no control over feelings, thoughts, actions.
My last posting was 26th November, it's taken me 61 days of urging myself to post and say a simple hello, but the will to do it is lost.
But today as I sit here in my cosy jumper, feet on the radiator, a jam sandwich (well two actually) and a cup of tea (yeah! an achievement in itself!) I am posting! (double yeah!). After 61 days of sitting in front of the screen urging myself to just do it! I am now conversing with you again - for how long I don't know, but while I have made this connection I am going to push it further (fingers crossed!) and try and make some cards, another thing I have been screeming at myself to just do it!
So for 2009 I am aiming to: beat depression; make more cards; leave more comments on blogs I visit; take part in challenge blogs and build my family life back up. So nothing too challenging then!
Speak soon
hello gorgeous xxx
I wish you all the luck in the world. You've been very brave to come on here and put your feelings into words, and that's a great start. I hope you can beat this awful thing.
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Julie x
I've added you to my friends. x
ReplyDeleteGood for you!! Depression robs pieces of so many peoples lives....Hang in there Sweetie...the world is gonna keep on turning...jumping on and off once in awhile won't hurt. Your creations are Gorgeous..can't wait to see what you come up with this year!!....Big Hugs, Ila
ReplyDeleteWell, you have me sitting here with a lump in my throat! I feel so much for you and want to congratulate you on this big step you've taken today. Your cards are absolutley stunning and it would be a travesty (?) for there to be no more. Come on girlie, get those scissors out and show the world what you're made of. I can't wait to see what creations you've got waiting to be set free.
ReplyDeleteSuper hugs to you,
Caryn xxx (Glitter Me Silly)
Hello Hello Gorgeous,
ReplyDeletePlease forgive me if you've already received three comments from me, but I seem to have a hard time posting comments with this "style" of comment box on the various blogs I visit. They don't seem to take my comments after I click "post comment." So, I'm trying this now on a friend's P.C., instead of my Mac laptop.
Anyway, I wanted to take you for posting my doodle on your blog, for the link, AND for becoming a follower. I am honored.
Stay "tooned" for more doodle fun.
Rick
It took - but I meant to write, "I want to THANK you" - not "take" you.
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Nothing as good as a jam butty and a brew!!!
ReplyDeleteOne small step for man kind.....a giant leap for Hello Gorgeous!! Gud on ya!!!
Viv xxx
Wow made my day to see you had posted on here! :0) I have been thinking of you and hoped you saw my message on my msn. Take one day at a time and you know where I am if you need a chat. Take care!
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Thank you for your lovely comments....I'm glad you popped over to visit my blog...
ReplyDeleteYou've got a fab blog - and make wonderful cards, so I'll be popping back to see how you're doin! Get stuck into the challenges as a reason to do something each day - you'll have fun and I'm sure the results will be stunning and you'll get to know so many people.
...and well done on getting back on here....the first steps and a very brave thing to do.....Sally-Ann...xx
thanks for your lovely comments, good to have you back blogging again take care hugs Jill x
ReplyDeleteThank you for your lovely comments...they really mean a lot and it's nice to see you're still on-line....xx
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