I don't make resolutions as a rule, what's the point? It's just another added pressure in an already pressurised society. This year is different though, I have resolved to fight and, hopefully beat, the deep depression I am living in which has been with me since 2007. I can't say I am winning, I try my best to get motivated to do something, anything, but the day ends up like previous days - I wake up, I go to bed and there's nothing in between - it's the most frustrating thing I've had to deal with, I have no control over feelings, thoughts, actions.
My last posting was 26th November, it's taken me 61 days of urging myself to post and say a simple hello, but the will to do it is lost.
But today as I sit here in my cosy jumper, feet on the radiator, a jam sandwich (well two actually) and a cup of tea (yeah! an achievement in itself!) I am posting! (double yeah!). After 61 days of sitting in front of the screen urging myself to just do it! I am now conversing with you again - for how long I don't know, but while I have made this connection I am going to push it further (fingers crossed!) and try and make some cards, another thing I have been screeming at myself to just do it!
So for 2009 I am aiming to: beat depression; make more cards; leave more comments on blogs I visit; take part in challenge blogs and build my family life back up. So nothing too challenging then!
Speak soon
hello gorgeous xxx
